Dear Diary,
This week was pretty hectic. ..It's gonna be for the next 2 days too. I really hope I have enough fuel to get all my to-do stuff completed...
The other day, I heard vienna by billy joel on Spotify....I was smiling through the whole thing. ..It was as if god sent that song on my random music list on purpose... Basically the song says, chill kid, dont forget to breathe when ur going about mad trying to achieve in life....
I should try to be more be chill...
Well, the thing is, I feel like I wasted a lot of time in college not knowing what to do with life, but now that I know, I'm trying to make up for all the lost time by doing double the work....Phew..I must not forget to breathe though.
This week I did a lot of self learning on seo. I guess I can do better for kiot and tod. I also got this app idea for my xd project...Then i did some competitor research on playstore and gave up. It's not because of too much competition...Trust me the competition is crappy,...But the solution is difficult to implement because I felt like, in the end it takes more than just an app to solve the problem..And it made me sad..Even if the app becomes real, the kind of audience who might end up using it may not use it like it's intended to be..
And that's one thing I noticed about this app which fares lot better compared to all those apps.... People write coherently here..Real things, not random stuff. ...I like that.
Anyway, I hope a new idea will come along my way soon...I really can't wait to get started on my xd project!...
One reason is that..That I want to do a full scale project on xd, but another reason is ucBerkeley :P
I can't help being fixated on it...I tried to get it out of my mind...But sometimes no matter what.. the heart wants what it wants...No.matter how much the brain tries to councel it to be rational and practical...I know in the end I'll end up crying for a week, when I get the rejection,....And then I'll move on offcourse...But until then, lemme nurture that dream in my head.. the dream itself feels so good. When the time for heartbreak comes, I'll cry and soak it all in..That's also an experience, isn't it?... I'm ready to face it....
Why am I like this? Even when I know it's an impossible dream, even when i write this, some feeling from deep within is poking me and telling, what if it's not..
Why do I have to be so optimistic...?Uugh...