Dear Diary,
Relationships are difficult, We cannot change people we love. Everyone has their opinion, has a character. And not everybody can understand each other. And when we love people, we cannot just always tell what we believe in. Because they expect us to be nice and understanding. And sometimes, we have to change ourselves for them. To keep the love alive. I wish that we could all think alike and understand each other, but its not always possible.
Yesterday mom and sweety had an argument session, it was over the same thing as always, sweety is doing job here and she ofcourse has learnt different things and now she behaves differently and i understand, its perfectly alright (Although, sometimes it hurts me too, how she behaves, sometimes i wish mom and her never should have come here). But i think i can make my peace with that. And i can understand mom too. I know how much she has seen for us. And everything she had to go through for raising us, and we are all here today, all because of her.
They both think they are right, mom is looking at future.
They both said somethings and shweta said that how could i sit there and not say her anything. I sat there, just thinking, because i knew that telling anything will only hurt. Everyone has different ideas and opinions. And everyone think they are right. We cannot do anything... Thats relationships... I am not saying it sucks.. It doesnt... If we have the capability to love, it's not bad... We can always let our opinion go, because at the end, no one is right or wrong... Its mere opinions... and opinions are only thoughts in our heads...
Babu(Navya) is here, shweta di has come(I don't remember telling you this, i think i told you, i don't know... =D). She plays all the time, like literally all the time. She is so much like Forrest. She is learning things, kids learn like monkeys, they learn by copying...
Work is going ok. Sales are progressing, but not at the pace we expected.
I dont have much future plan about new products right now, i dont know what we should do next?
Sandeep wont listen to my plan... (I know thats really difficult decision, but thats what i always thought a strong leader would know, how to take bold decisions). Whatever happens, i think we all have to take responsibility for our own actions. I realize my mistakes, but sandeep has to realize his mistakes too... If nothing, Atleast this venture should teach us something.
I think Greed is also a bad thing. Earlier i thought its ambitions, and ambitions are good for business, but i think i am learning now that ambitions and greed can be differentiated, its ambition when we see the business at a height and which is supported with a proper plan, but its mere greed in the absence of a plan.
I dont know why i am feeling sad today. Somedays i just feel sad. I really dont know, like for real, why is it ? I know i'll be good tomorrow. But i don't know why i am sad today. I also know that no one can help me. Thats what i was thinking today, i always thought that once we are together, things will be all good and maybe what i saw in her was someone who could fill the void in my soul (I dont know) But i thought about it today, if she were here, can i become happy? Will it change greatly, how i feel right now ? I think No. No one can fill the void in our souls. It'll heal itself, With time, and we have to give it just that. Time.
In morning i saw a video of Richard feynman. He is so amazing.
Buenas Noches.. ❤️❤️