March 27, 2019

1
Comments

Dear Diary, 

Why does life have to be So stressful?

I feel like I'm slowly sinking deeper into a bottomless pit that is going to gobble up  my happiness and spit me out leaving me with nothing but heartbreak and misery. If that is happening im actually surprised because I don't remember the feelings of happiness ive gone completely numb. I know how to portray happiness Wich is why nobody's really noticed that I'm not okay. But I forgot what it feels like to actually be happy. I think that people are starting to notice that im not Okay. Since I'm sinking deeper into this the more difficult it is to keep my head above water. I'm already drowning and these wieghts are dragging me down farther. I woke up this morning with huge puffy bags under my eyes because I had cried myself to sleep. I have to go to bed soon. I love going to sleep because its not just sleep.. Its an escape. But lately im having nightmares and when I wake up I'm relieved it's over.. But then I remember im living one, my own personal nightmare... Yay. 

Night

N
Nobody special
Mar 28, 2019 · 74 views

Comments (1)

Sign in to leave a comment.

K
Kung Fu Panda 🤠Mar 28, 2019

Sometimes thoughts create a boundary in our heads, tall circling wall, and we are standing in the middle of it, outside the wall, there are many things, many possibilities, but we cannot see anything beyond the wall. People outside, however, can still see both u and what's outside the wall. U dont want to believe that it'll get better, because these walls are resisting your mind. But being an outsider i can tell you, it will for sure. And i thi k one way to break this wall is to accept it, dissolve it with other things slowly... Think of it, maybe being depressed is your quality, that's your nature, but that's ok, being sad is not a bad thing, we are humans and we have all sorts of emotions, our creator gave us all these abilities, so this cannot be a bad thing. Start accepting your Reality and u need not pretend in front of anyone. Tell them how u feel. Tell urself how u feel and tell urself that is is completely OK...to be sad is not a bad thing... Make peace with urself, and above all Love urself.. The wall will dissolve one day and u'll see everything, and life will get better, trust me...

"A diary is a friend who will never betray you."

— Seo Jang-geum