Dear Diary,
Why does life have to be So stressful?
I feel like I'm slowly sinking deeper into a bottomless pit that is going to gobble up my happiness and spit me out leaving me with nothing but heartbreak and misery. If that is happening im actually surprised because I don't remember the feelings of happiness ive gone completely numb. I know how to portray happiness Wich is why nobody's really noticed that I'm not okay. But I forgot what it feels like to actually be happy. I think that people are starting to notice that im not Okay. Since I'm sinking deeper into this the more difficult it is to keep my head above water. I'm already drowning and these wieghts are dragging me down farther. I woke up this morning with huge puffy bags under my eyes because I had cried myself to sleep. I have to go to bed soon. I love going to sleep because its not just sleep.. Its an escape. But lately im having nightmares and when I wake up I'm relieved it's over.. But then I remember im living one, my own personal nightmare... Yay.
Night