Dear Diary,
For years ive been depressed.. But I feel like its getting worse. I know that people love me and dont want me to "leave" but lately ive been thinking about "leaving" allot. Yesterday night I cut myself for the first time. Ive gotta admit it didnt really make me feel better if anything it made me feel worse. Afterwords I just kept asking myself why I dont feel any better why it didnt help.. And I did it more. I didnt want to go to an adult because adults dont understand me. They think that if they throw me in a hospital and put me on medication that I will feel better. I told my friend (Virina) and she made me feel so much better. Im so lucky to have her even though most times I completely forget that I have someone to go to. I just wish she could do more than make me feel slightly better for three minutes. I wish she could take all the pain away. And I wish I could take hers away.