March 27, 2019

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Dear Diary, 

For years ive been depressed.. But I feel like its getting worse. I know that people love me and dont want me to "leave" but lately ive been thinking about "leaving" allot. Yesterday night I cut myself for the first time. Ive gotta admit it didnt really make me feel better if anything it made me feel worse. Afterwords I just kept asking myself why I dont feel any better why it didnt help.. And I did it more. I didnt want to go to an adult because adults dont understand me. They think that if they throw me in a hospital and put me on medication that I will feel better. I told my friend (Virina) and she made me feel so much better. Im so lucky to have her even though most times I completely forget that I have someone to go to. I just wish she could do more than make me feel slightly better for three minutes. I wish she could take all the pain away. And I wish I could take hers away.

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Nobody special✓
Mar 28, 2019 · 38 views

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Stephaniesrose Apr 15, 2019

I spent my teen years in and out of hospitals a d ad an adult still struggle with depression. The name of your diary trminds me of Ellen Page's character on "Umbrella Academy" she believed she wasnt special and was unable to flourish. Perhsps i felt so special "in a bad way "i couldn't flourish. I dont have answers obviously but i have good times and remind myself there will be more.. perhsps only in the warmer weather because winder depression is the worse but summer is coming again. Life is worth hanhing for the good times i promise you .

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Kung Fu Panda 🤠Mar 28, 2019

There was a time i was depressed too. Felt like leaving, maybelike you do today. I wanted something I wasn't getting, and I desperately wanted to the meaning of life and I couldn't find it.. But its those difficult times in which I learnt something which helps me in life everyday now. Life will unfold, slowly. There is so much more to see. The night will pass, just keep yourself storg now, for u want to see the sunlight of spring tommorow. Tell people upfront how u feel, don't hide it in you, that'll only make it worse. Let them judge if they want to, it doesn't change you. Believe in yourself and start doing what it takes to change your life instead of sitting and thinking about it.

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edison joaoMar 28, 2019

we're here for you !

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