Dear Diary,
Sometime we just know that few things aren't going to work out. And yet we just keep giving it another shot and then another and then another. But somehow we already know its not going to work out. But we can't just give up or can't let it go because we wanted this to work out so dearly since the beginning. We always imagined, that one happy ending at the end of it, it'll be all great and beautiful once it's done, Right ? but will it be ? Most probably NoH. Because its just one thing, out of our many obsessions from past. Some worked out and some didn't, but was it all great after those which worked out ? Point is, it'll never end, things will keep coming, its one thing today and another tomorrow, and sometimes its much more important to let go of the thing we are holding today so we can get something new tomorrow. It may or may not be better but we have got to try for ourselves, that's life. Nothing is sure shot and nothing is guaranteed here, atleast not for us Humans(Which we often think the other way).
But Problem is we have come so far and we think that, now letting go means we are loosing something, the time we spent working on it has gone. But has it ? Since we know that " ना कुछ लेके आये थे ना लेके ज़ायेंगे ". Then may be it doesn't really matter what we achieve or get. Maybe its just about experiencing and in that case we haven't lost anything. Ok... So now I am concluding that since it doesn't matter what we achieve, then maybe its not necessary to give up on anything and trying something new. maybe its alright to be stuck with something... (Thats bad..., I was expecting clarity when I started writing but its going in wrong direction, its confusing... 😂😂)
Ok, But I think when we know something is not going to work, and I know that I have given up on certain things in past after I was stuck with it for a long time, why not give up early this time... Moreover for me this is also an act of practice of Letting things go... I know its just very important to learn to let go of things, even more important than learning to be determined to get something. Because I have realized that the true peace can be achieved only by letting go and not gaining something, that's for sure... And giving up as early as possible would practically be a good idea. (So I am clear now). I am finding another project now. Maybe make a robot or automate business of my mamas so they can all sit in peace in home or come to home for vacations as they once used to.
Its so great, writing to you is just so great, u just crushed my day long dilemma.
Anyway Goodnight. Buenas Noches 😂 (I started learning Spanish again, Yesterday earned 250points on Duolingo. Have decided to give 1 hour everyday until my birthday. A month away...). Chao...