Dear Diary,
Its sunday evening.
You already know this how i like evenings. Evenings are good. Although it doesnt feel as good as the first time i said this thing about evening(today, it feels something is missing). But Its great, i mean, the golden clouds, the setting sun, birds flying in groups, maybe returning their homes(Thats what i used to read in books when i was a kid). There is an amazing silence even in the crowd in evenings.
Like all sundays sunday market is on today. All rush, i am standing in the crowd, looking at all the people coming and going. All sorts of them. Most of them carrying big bags fully loaded with vegetables for entire week. Boys girls, kids, olds every sort of people. क़ुछ लोग ऐसे सज धज के आ रहे जैसे दुनिया सब्जि लेने नहि आ रहि उन्हे खरीदने आ रही हो । Some with earphones in their ears and some looking both sides while walking, all confused. Most of them looks like lost in thoughts. Stories in their heads. There is also this tote wala uncle sitting on the side of the road whose parrot tells future of us humans(Really...?) and guys going to him with hopes(I can only imagine how hopeless they must be feeling). Anyway its crowded and i see all these people like animals carrying so many different stories and so many different words inside their heads, it all just surprises me how the creator is managing all this, all of us.
Sunday food - Every Sunday mom makes something special. Today's special at Daga's was Paper Dosa. Its great. Mom is great. And so is my sister. Exceptional cook.
The problems - The thing with problems is they will be solved eventually. However big they might look, but you'll find solution one day. So, the last week i again got into a a problem at work, I know it was a small thing, but i couldn't solve it. for 3 days in a row, i could sleep in night, those bits were jumping in my head, on one night, i felt scared thinking my brain might explode if i slept tonight. These days I am scared of getting stuck into problems, because once i am stuck into a problem, i just keep going down and down, sink myself into it, i am obsessed with it, i cannot leave it in between. However i come out of it and eventually end up learning new things about how things work(In this case, For example i now know how to use bitwise XOR, something i was always running away from). But anyway, like all the times, i got out of it, found solution. And it strengthens my belief that for every problem we'll find solution one day for sure. But i think i am getting a little bit more pressure at work and maybe i am not liking that.(I know, I know that earning more with doing less is not the kind of thing i appreciate for a man, but maybe i dont need to earn more money, and work less too). Anyway, i guess this should be ok.
Travelling Cravings - These days i feel too much like packing my bag and going somewhere. Its been so long, almost an year since i went on a trip with the boys. I want to go out. See more people, eat more food, see more clouds, feel the cold, smeel new air, sit on rivers, do some adventure or just live in a new place. But i want to gooooo.. And right now it seems i just cannot. Dammit, I feel i might just run away from home one day, leaving a letter behind, for my mom and for my office...
Blue Jay movie - Finally the day is ending and i watched this movie - "Blue Jay". Its nice, black and white, no thrillers, no big events, no comedy. Just plain old drama. In fact in the entire movie there are just two people, just two of them. No other people, and no events, its just two people who met after 20 years and going through their old stuff and memories and soft music playing in between. But i like it, Its exactly the kind of movies i like...
The days is over...
Goodnight... 😊😊😊