Writer at Heart's Dear Diary

Index
December 07, 2024
Today I've spent most of the day binging. Ended up finishing all of the cookies. They didn't even taste that great.
Dec 07
December 06, 2024
Dear Diary, I know that my binging problems hurt my body. Each time I'm sick I promise I won't do that again. An yet... Each time my stomach stops aching and gallbladder feels fine I do it all over again. My gallbladder is doing badly this year
Dec 06
November 16, 2024
I'll beat bulimia.
Nov 17
November 08, 2024
Dear Diary, I am grateful for today.  I also realized that most of the people are temporary. They change, come and go, and that the only person who is always going to be by my side is me myself. Don't trust people that much - some things are
Nov 09
November 02, 2024
I purged three days in a row after almost a week of not doing it.
Nov 03
October 27, 2024
I'm tired. I think there was something I wanted to do but I can't remember what it is. My body aches. I should have probably gone for the walk before bed but it's too late now. I don't feel like waking up tomorrow. I feel weak. I don't feel like doin
Oct 28
October 25, 2024
Dear Diary, Everything WILL be okay.
Oct 25
October 20, 2024
Dear Diary, I ended up throwing up. I promise to never do that again.
Oct 20
October 20, 2024
Dear Diary, They say that recovery is not linear. Yesterday wasn't best, but okay. Today I binged on sweets - fats and sugar. But I'm not going to throw up. At least I hope not to. I hope that tomorrow will be better. I have to resolve no-fruit.
Oct 20
October 15, 2024
Dear Diary, How foolish am I not to realize that as soon as I give in even a little bit, it's done. It goes like this: "I'll eat just a little bit". But ends with me eating a lot. I may not let myself give in because I won't be satisfied with th
Oct 15
October 14, 2024
Dear Diary, I'm so done with this disorder. I just need to be a good girl for the rest of the week to set my healing process. I have a specific food plan tomorrow which WILL follow and which should set me up for success later in the week. Finger
Oct 14
October 11, 2024
No, not only I binged ate today, but I binge ate twice! Started with breakfast. Tomorrow for real, starting over. I'll win!!! I promise myself not to binge it tomorrow for sure. I'm so tired of it.
Oct 11
October 10, 2024
I'm stuck in this loop. Yes, I ate too much for lunch. And it would have been fine. But I ate after that as well. Damn! ((( I guess I'm starting over. Again.
Oct 11
October 09, 2024
No binge eating. I'm starting on October 10. Let's see how it goes.
Oct 10
September 25, 2024
I'm struggling very bad with my dopamine-dysregulated brain.
Sep 25