Writer at Heart's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Bipolar sucks

Dear Diary, When was my last normal food intake? Tbh, I'd happily take ana over bulimia. I purged yesterday, but binged today 3 times again. Feel nasty. Scared of ruining my face and teeth.

I regret not purging.

I've just binged but I'm not going to throw up. It is my conscious choice. Why? 1. My facial swelling has gone down. I don't want to look like a chipmunk again. 2. I need to break this cycle. 3. I need to practice resisting temptation.

I've never felt so miserable in my life. There just not enough tears for me to cry out everything.

Dear Diary, I think that the key to solving my eating disorder problem is stop going hungry. Eat five times a day. Eat enough of proteins and carbs. Carbs at every meal. Have dinner at 6:30-7:00 pm to not feel hungry late. Like today I binged at 3, b

I've had hypomania pretty much all of winter break and now I'm afraid I'm rolling into depression.

Wishing you strength to get through whatever it is you're facing right now.

Dear diary, I've gained weight. For real. I've gained 13 pounds. The thing is that, it's not like I've gained because I've enjoyed foods - no. I've gained because I've been abusing my body. I wonder how realistic it is to not eat any more sweets

Why harm myself? Food always tastes good. It will taste good, regardless of how much I have now. Tomorrow I will still want it. And the day after. And the next. But only so much food will benefit me at the time. More will hurt. I won't have enough no

Today I've spent most of the day binging. Ended up finishing all of the cookies. They didn't even taste that great.

Dear Diary, I know that my binging problems hurt my body. Each time I'm sick I promise I won't do that again. An yet... Each time my stomach stops aching and gallbladder feels fine I do it all over again. My gallbladder is doing badly this year

I'll beat bulimia.

Dear Diary, I am grateful for today.  I also realized that most of the people are temporary. They change, come and go, and that the only person who is always going to be by my side is me myself. Don't trust people that much - some things are

I purged three days in a row after almost a week of not doing it.