When will I be able to let you go?
The fact that we live in the same building makes it difficult. Seeing you outside sometimes makes it difficult. Colliding from time to time in the gym makes it difficult.
I know you don't have it all together, even if you make it look like you do.
Maybe you are right by not responding. Maybe we shouldn't see each other. But you ghosting me like that breaks my heart. Why can't you just answer? I know why. It's awkward. Not replying is just easier, more convenient way to brush off a girl.
Just so you know you turned my world upside down. Radically. Just like that. You were a breaking point between my past and now. There were so many things going on that academic year we've met.
That's why I got a bitt too much attached.
You were the person I needed during such weird time. The worst - I feel like I still do. Us colliding makes me hope for more. I just don't want us collide. But the hypothetical thought of you moving away also makes me sorrowful. I've experienced something new with you.
You truly are a different person. I know it might sound cheesy, but it is an absolute truth. I have never met anyone like you before.
I thought about it. Do I miss the feelings I've had around you or you? And I've come to realize that it is, in fact, you that I miss.
What can I do? There is truly nothing I can do to make you see me at least one last time. Just to end things like normal people. With a formal goodbye.
It's a lie. Fruit of imagination. I keep feeding myself this, and I just need to stop.
I truly wish you a good life wherever your path will take you.
Yours,