River's Dear Diary

This isn’t an I miss you and want to reconnect . This is I’m tired of wondering why I deserved to be used again . How someone can be so upfront about their past , and yet can be taken advantage of again . Why didn’t you break things off when you told

In the great words of Blackbear, "2016 was catastrophic. I deserved it, just grateful that it is over, just thankful that its through". What a time it is you just graduated, it is your 18th birthday. You are at the beach, salt in your hair, sand on y

I am fully enjoying my journaling journey. I love the quiet time it is giving me, alone with myself. The sound of the penicil scraping across the paper, it takes me back to simpler times. But sometimes when I look up prompts it causes me stress. I am

Take a walk with me, through the damp basement and out the storm door. IT smells if cat and moldy dust. You push through the cobwebs and taste the night air. The only light is coming from a street lamp a football field away. You grab my hand, we go a

Do you regret the way you treated me? What about how you shoved weird substances into my nose? You remember when I said no and you told me I was a bummer? Never any fun. Sitting in the back seat of the Pontiac scared for my life. Desperately craving

Anxiety and depression are strange. They change your entire personality, I am 25 I feel like I am just now figuring out who I am. Who I want to be. For most my life I was being who I needed to be. I didn't stand for anything. Just wanted to make it t

It is dark and damp. Two beds with sheets that would come alive under a black light. You can smell the booze and cheap perfume. You are not alone but you feel isolated and defeated. A man a stranger you once knew. Hands you a brick. Confused and scar

The type of people that takes advantage of a broken beaten soul are the lowest scum to walk this earth. Everyone runs into these people. I think I was created to deal with them head on. A big blinking neon sign on my forehead "Take advantage of me".

Climb aboard the red rocket ship. Are you ready to explore. You are zooming through the clouds you land in outer space, its feels oddly familiar... but the walls are bleeding rainbows. The doors are growing tall. Did you hear that? Its an alien, you

The first night you encounter Zanny The Nanny is so chilling you are numb. You stare into each others eyes both to nervous to make the first move. Voices in your head are calling you weak. Being suspicious of a friend? You let her in, she wraps you i

The coating on my favorite candy is purple, bitter, and sticky. It melts on my tongue makes my taste buds cringe. When its really bitter I wipe it off on my t-shirt. It leaves a waxy purple stain, but that's okay purple is my favorite color after all