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Dear Diary, It's been sometime. I've been busy. I've been doing well I think. Today after sometime I made contact with S. I've had some trouble financially. Who else could I ask? It was a bad idea. He replied with a one liner. Sorry I'm rather brok

Dear Diary, February is done. My birthday month. However nothing special happened. I never really went anywhere. Trying to focus on work. It's been really busy. March is definitely going to be a good distraction. Should I just allow life to swallow

Dear Diary, Today has been a very productive day. I am grateful for my work. That I can prove that I am not just an ornament in the office. I actually add value.  Also grateful for thinking less of S. And not feeling compelled to make contact. I d

Dear Diary, It's been 6 days. 6 whole days since that man told me that he wants to move on and change. He told me that he does not trust me. I did not feel offended at all. It doesn't bother me. Work has been keeping me busy and my up and coming dr

Dear Diary, Today he asked me again why I could not move on. He  Told me that I am obsessed with him. He told me that he wants to grow up and become a better person. He expected me to say something. I told him nothing I said would change his mind

Dear Diary, Love should be freeing right? At least that's how I view it. It is something that whwn you feel it, it's like a breathe of fresh air. Like you can fully breathe in it and feel comfort. It should not feel controlled. It should not fee

I do not like this. It feels suffocating. It feels wrong. It's like I can't do anything right for him. Explaining equates to changing the mind or changing details or reasons. I can't talk to my friends. I can't talk to my best friend without feeling

Dear Diary, He just said he loves me. Through a chat. But yeah it just happened. After a really long and serious conversation. It wasn't a fight but it was a serious conversation.  At 1:32 and 1:33am with my name. How do I feel? I was happy

Dear Diary, I am not sure how I feel about this person. Things happened so quickly and now I am confused if I should be happy or be wary. I have a lot to think about. Maybe I should keep my distance and think about this first. I feel like I forg

Dear Diary, It's highly possible that he is not interested and was only being polite. I guess I'll just not DM him anymore. I feel like I'm intruding. I'll just be in my own bubble again. I hate that I feel like I want something more out of this. I

Dear Diary, I could not sleep. I have a lot on my mind. Mostly terrible thoughts but I would like one good thing to be on my mind before I sleep. I played a game with someone, he's a friend of a friend. I just heard his voice but it was refreshi