July 07, 2022

I do not like this. It feels suffocating. It feels wrong. It's like I can't do anything right for him. Explaining equates to changing the mind or changing details or reasons. I can't talk to my friends. I can't talk to my best friend without feeling guilty because he does not like him. I feel like my world is getting smaller. I feel like explaining or defending myself is futile because he already has an opinion formed or something else to use against me. I do not like how he is making me feel anymore. It used to be happy. Now, I just feel like I'm walking around eggshells. I have no one to talk to but this open diary.