Ummakkl's Dear Diary

I love you

My friend, my mate, my brother, I just want to let you know how my love works, just kind of idea of how this broken heart works, let me tell you that sometimes, when I open my heart with you and I share the things that put me on a low vibe, in most o

My city is a disaster today, the streets, the neighbors are crazy and scary, some of them want to start the chaos, the bad people are getting advantage of this situation for breaking into the houses to steal and destroy, I can't understand why the pe

This morning when I woke up, I realized how important is someone in your life. But, I want to let the things clear from the beginning, we are just friends. We love each other as friends. I don't know what's happening in my mind, I could never let tha

Lately I've been stuck at my dad's house. He lives with his mom. His mom is really annoying. She says a lot of unnecessary and mean things. She often contradicts herself. I often reply with a nod or "maybe", "I don't know". I feel like one day I will

Recently I saw a person on TikTok live and they reminded me of a person that I knew. The person was annoying and irresponsible, and I kept digging in my memories and actually I've met so much people who were like this.  And now I'm worried, is it jus

I don't know what's wrong with me. It was my birthday yesterday, and my family is gathering up tomorrow. I hate them so much I can hardly stand being in the se room with them even though they didn't really do anything bad.  My grandfather thinks wome

Like 3-4 years ago, I always wore skirts to school and was absolutely comfortable. Few times I wore a skirt in late middle school, but only because there were mainly girls in my class and no one sexualized me. But now I can't even imagine doing that.

I understand that I will never be happy. And it isn't even about love. I can never make people respect me. I feel like my parents only see me as a responsibility.  I think I mentally hurt a lot of people. I know I have no right to make myself a v

I wish at least someone saw me as a friend. I already said that, maybe, the problem is in me. I have some problems with understanding other people, I think. I probably need to change but I don't know how and what to change. It's something about my be

I am so confused. I want to know what do they think about me. Why do people in my life act the way they do? I can't understand what are their thoughts.   What if they hate me? I don't really know what would I do If I found out that they do. It's pro