Pen's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, 🤤 So update from not having an all day text 🤔 , I sent him a song and he sent me another song back! A nice one. He got the hint and we been back and forth with it just sending each other songs. And love songs too.  This is weird co

Today I didnt get a text from him. Bad sign. Because this is his pattern before he ghosts me. And what do I do? I send him a youtube video song that I found to suit my feelings for him. Hope he gets the hint. Very likely he'll blow it off and change

Dear Diary, ❤❤❤❤❤❤ I feel happy like any fool would.  I'm so happy I could cry, I'm also so vulnerable right now I could cry.  I saw him today.  He pulled me in to cuddle as we watched a movie. We went to go eat and came back and this time I pul

Dear Diary, I saw him today.  So since last week , I've been telling him about how I have an ex from the past three years and idk why but that might be why hes not being his usual kissy self? At the time that I was leaving he gets so loveable and

Small things are happening. Hes okay with me talking with his parents and doesn't try to hide me as much. It's a latino thing where we just hide our "new" friendships from our parents.I told him I love him. And I meant it. Only thing was, it was said

Dear Diary, Guess. What. Thee fellow I had the dream about (on previous posts) and the one whom I matched on an app for singles.  . .   I messaged him and we hung out. Just now. My gosh it was wonderful ☺️. No kisses today but a few long hugs.

!!!!!!! I found my ex on a dating site. I want to talk to him SO bad ! I just cant make the first move because of how often hes ghosted me and it's just sad all together. But at least we matched...(he did that first).. Any advice?

Dear Diary, I had a dream about "the one who got away". It was so vivid and felt amazing. We were starting to talk and hang out like we used to but this time he was more into me this time. Sweeter and kinder.  I was abruptly woken up, however, by

I spontaneously asked"Are you in love with her?" Inhaling the realization Of the circumstances  Pausing before exhaling  10 years and counting Of pausing after inhaling With no care as to what my body needs, I break down, and endure the ongoing pain,

Lately I've been stuck at my dad's house. He lives with his mom. His mom is really annoying. She says a lot of unnecessary and mean things. She often contradicts herself. I often reply with a nod or "maybe", "I don't know". I feel like one day I will

Recently I saw a person on TikTok live and they reminded me of a person that I knew. The person was annoying and irresponsible, and I kept digging in my memories and actually I've met so much people who were like this.  And now I'm worried, is it jus

I don't know what's wrong with me. It was my birthday yesterday, and my family is gathering up tomorrow. I hate them so much I can hardly stand being in the se room with them even though they didn't really do anything bad.  My grandfather thinks wome

Like 3-4 years ago, I always wore skirts to school and was absolutely comfortable. Few times I wore a skirt in late middle school, but only because there were mainly girls in my class and no one sexualized me. But now I can't even imagine doing that.

I understand that I will never be happy. And it isn't even about love. I can never make people respect me. I feel like my parents only see me as a responsibility.  I think I mentally hurt a lot of people. I know I have no right to make myself a v

I wish at least someone saw me as a friend. I already said that, maybe, the problem is in me. I have some problems with understanding other people, I think. I probably need to change but I don't know how and what to change. It's something about my be

I am so confused. I want to know what do they think about me. Why do people in my life act the way they do? I can't understand what are their thoughts.   What if they hate me? I don't really know what would I do If I found out that they do. It's pro