Ummakkl's Dear Diary

Like 3-4 years ago, I always wore skirts to school and was absolutely comfortable. Few times I wore a skirt in late middle school, but only because there were mainly girls in my class and no one sexualized me. But now I can't even imagine doing that.

I understand that I will never be happy. And it isn't even about love. I can never make people respect me. I feel like my parents only see me as a responsibility.  I think I mentally hurt a lot of people. I know I have no right to make myself a v

I wish at least someone saw me as a friend. I already said that, maybe, the problem is in me. I have some problems with understanding other people, I think. I probably need to change but I don't know how and what to change. It's something about my be

I am so confused. I want to know what do they think about me. Why do people in my life act the way they do? I can't understand what are their thoughts.   What if they hate me? I don't really know what would I do If I found out that they do. It's pro