Ummakkl's Dear Diary

Lately I've been stuck at my dad's house. He lives with his mom. His mom is really annoying. She says a lot of unnecessary and mean things. She often contradicts herself. I often reply with a nod or "maybe", "I don't know". I feel like one day I will

Recently I saw a person on TikTok live and they reminded me of a person that I knew. The person was annoying and irresponsible, and I kept digging in my memories and actually I've met so much people who were like this.  And now I'm worried, is it jus

I don't know what's wrong with me. It was my birthday yesterday, and my family is gathering up tomorrow. I hate them so much I can hardly stand being in the se room with them even though they didn't really do anything bad.  My grandfather thinks wome

Like 3-4 years ago, I always wore skirts to school and was absolutely comfortable. Few times I wore a skirt in late middle school, but only because there were mainly girls in my class and no one sexualized me. But now I can't even imagine doing that.

I understand that I will never be happy. And it isn't even about love. I can never make people respect me. I feel like my parents only see me as a responsibility.  I think I mentally hurt a lot of people. I know I have no right to make myself a v

I wish at least someone saw me as a friend. I already said that, maybe, the problem is in me. I have some problems with understanding other people, I think. I probably need to change but I don't know how and what to change. It's something about my be

I am so confused. I want to know what do they think about me. Why do people in my life act the way they do? I can't understand what are their thoughts.   What if they hate me? I don't really know what would I do If I found out that they do. It's pro