Chief 's Dear Diary

I was emailing this podcaster. This was the email: Disclaimer: If this email turns out too good to be just an email, I'll publish it I've lost count of the times I've been crippled by imposter syndrome. It's like I build castles near the sea which

Dear Panther, Not a day goes by where I don't think of you. You pop up in my head on the most random of occasions. I was guzzling salted peanuts the other day thinking of how much you like them. It took a lot of control for me to not send you a p

It's been 5 days since we last spoke. I miss him. And I have gnawing feeling in my heart that I won't ever see him or speak to him ever again. Correction: I don't think he'll see me or speak to me ever again. That day when he went back home, P

I can't stop smelling my hair. It smells like him. I don't even know where to start. My soul is still suspended in outer space. My eyes are a little droopy and there's a lopsided grip plastered on my face as I write this. Panther came over for a movi

So this is what walking on air with one toe lightly dipped in reality feels like.  I just had my second date with Panther.Guess who's walking on sunshine and into hell because I'm way past my curfew time. I'm dancing into a lion's den with with a wid

"In the night when the bars close down Brandy walks through a silent town And loves a man who's not around She still can hear him say She hears him say "Brandy, you're a fine girl! What a good wife you would be! But my life, my love and my l

I should probably be sent to hell :) I'm "exploring my options".I use maximum of my Hinge matches for TRM. I don't even know why I still browse Hinge and send out/ accept match requests. What I'm about to write should've been another entry. I'm in th

Flamingo, oh, Flamingo. I had to idea I'd be walking on air because someone told me they'd kiss me on text. Fantasy texting is a tricky pursuit. It feels AMAZING. But there's this constant sense of dismay because I know it's just fantasy. But that ti

Welcome back to my Hinge journal! We meet again to talk about another guy: Flamingo. This was an unexpected one.After Panda, I was a little frustrated with everything and he was just adding salt to injury. The toughest part of being an overachiever i

Life's just funny, guys.So funny. Last night, right before I was about to shut my eyes, I sat upright with a jolt. There was something I had to do. I had to tell Panda that he doesn't get to treat me this way.  And that's precisely what I did. Via vo

This is why I don't relationships or anything even closely resembling to one. Listen up, men.You don't tell a girl you "genuinely like her" and then forget about her the very next day and not call or text for the week. AND YOU DEFINITELY CAN'T KEEP S

My best prompt on Hinge is: "I go crazy for a business idea or anyone who can harmonize/duet with me." This prompt has got me 2 types of matches: Work-oriented guys and music guys, and sometimes, guys who're a little bit of both.  "I run an

I've asked Panda about our date twice last week. And it's supposed to be tomorrow. And he hasn't said anything yet.  He sent me a video of his college dance society practising, and that was it.  Radio silence ever since.  God, what has become of

It's been so very long since I've felt this way. A little, glowing ball of warmth nests in the center of my chest. I smile as I walk. Despite the seeds of doubt in mind, my heart chooses to glow. I was on a phone call with Panda last night. He and I

Yesterday was a horrid one.  I went to a pride march organized by GirlUp DCAC, the college society I'm a part of. I'd been actively helping out with the preparation for the march since last two weeks. It's been less than a month that I've joined

Dear Diary, (Lego) Today has been interesting I'm in a DID (disassociatve identity disorder system) I don't feel like explaing what is is so you can look at previous entries or like .... Look it up on the internet. I'm am alter. I think I'm a protec

Dear Diary, TW eating disorders, Trauma (Blue) -Trama holder I'm not in a good place. Ii can't eat... I can't eat anything, I struggle with anorexia for so long. One of my good friends in the system struggles with Pica. He eats paper and pain

Dear Diary, Living with DID (dissociative Identity disorder) had been no walk in the park. DID: formerly called multiple personality disorder, it's characterized by at least two distinct identities.DID is a dissociative disorder and not a perso