Islandwalker's Dear Diary

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July 31, 2020{ T }
Dear Diary, 🤤 So update from not having an all day text 🤔 , I sent him a song and he sent me another song back! A nice one. He got the hint and we been back and forth with it just sending each other songs. And love songs too.  This is weird co
Jul 31
July 29, 2020{ T }
Today I didnt get a text from him. Bad sign. Because this is his pattern before he ghosts me. And what do I do? I send him a youtube video song that I found to suit my feelings for him. Hope he gets the hint. Very likely he'll blow it off and change
Jul 30
July 26, 2020{ T }
Dear Diary, ❤❤❤❤❤❤ I feel happy like any fool would.  I'm so happy I could cry, I'm also so vulnerable right now I could cry.  I saw him today.  He pulled me in to cuddle as we watched a movie. We went to go eat and came back and this time I pul
Jul 27
July 19, 2020{ T }
Dear Diary, I saw him today.  So since last week , I've been telling him about how I have an ex from the past three years and idk why but that might be why hes not being his usual kissy self? At the time that I was leaving he gets so loveable and
Jul 20
July 12, 2020{ T }
Small things are happening. Hes okay with me talking with his parents and doesn't try to hide me as much. It's a latino thing where we just hide our "new" friendships from our parents.I told him I love him. And I meant it. Only thing was, it was said
Jul 13
July 11, 2020 { T }
Dear Diary, Guess. What. Thee fellow I had the dream about (on previous posts) and the one whom I matched on an app for singles.  . .   I messaged him and we hung out. Just now. My gosh it was wonderful ☺️. No kisses today but a few long hugs.
Jul 12
July 11, 2020 { T }
!!!!!!! I found my ex on a dating site. I want to talk to him SO bad ! I just cant make the first move because of how often hes ghosted me and it's just sad all together. But at least we matched...(he did that first).. Any advice?
Jul 11
July 07, 2020 { T }
Dear Diary, I had a dream about "the one who got away". It was so vivid and felt amazing. We were starting to talk and hang out like we used to but this time he was more into me this time. Sweeter and kinder.  I was abruptly woken up, however, by
Jul 08
July 04, 2020 { W }
I spontaneously asked"Are you in love with her?" Inhaling the realization Of the circumstances  Pausing before exhaling  10 years and counting Of pausing after inhaling With no care as to what my body needs, I break down, and endure the ongoing pain,
Jul 04
May 18, 2021
Dear Diary,my muscle is stiff, i can't work normally, i feel nauseous.. Lord, I want to be healthy, but Your will be done. Not mine.
May 18
May 09, 2021
Dear Diary, My King, My Saviour, My Lord Jesus Christ
May 09
September 21, 2020
Dear Diary,  we're all broken here. so understand more n change for the good. that's all the broken things can do. it is exhausting and hurting, and very hard if you keep trying to radiate goodness if you yourself is hurting, whether it is infli
Sep 21
September 21, 2020
Dear Diary, watching soap opera and drinking coffee after morning feasty breakfast with a generous personal space. sj charm accompanying me. thank you sj for helping me overcome this prison of mind.
Sep 21
September 16, 2020
Dear Diary, I have to thank for the good things happening now. This unnormal Times actually adds more things to my likement. Honestly I never liked having to meet my relatives. Nor that much having a family dine-out. I never liked the family things.
Sep 15
September 14, 2020
Dear Diary, be grateful,do what you have to
Sep 14
September 11, 2020
Dear Diary, for long i have not try to love and relate nor care for my dad, i never did love my mom, maybe once. Until recently I did not understand what a parent love for his kids, i seldomly thought about my dad. Care for him. I am not confident to
Sep 11
September 10, 2020
Dear Diary, I think I should give my mom credit to instill the adrenaline in me, i got groggy and to eliminate the slacking to work hard
Sep 10
September 10, 2020
Dear Diary,i feel this life is pretty tricky . they say there are highs and lows. like the old man horse metaphor, what seems good event might not always turns out good. where is this going? only god knows. i better be ready when the opportunity come
Sep 10
September 08, 2020
Positive, positive, positive Fine fine let’s do it
Sep 08
September 08, 2020
Dear Diary, mentally abusive. god help me.
Sep 08
September 06, 2020
Dear Diary, maybe i am too truthful because the truth would just depress you.. they say to think positive and say lighter things.. everyone thinks so.. well yeah maybe.. im just nothing so my thoughts wouldn't make that much different anway
Sep 06
September 05, 2020
Dear Diary,this brain is really hurting. but I thought I would need it. I don't know if I could stay in one piece to keep this brain.
Sep 05
September 05, 2020
Dear Diary,i got no life. do nothing all day but figuring what to do next. which is changing every single day. oh god. i planned to kill myself just to have things turned back on me again. god if there is you, you really purposely want to make me suf
Sep 05
September 05, 2020
Dear Diary, my life is so hard. so very hard to get through.  im glad I found this app though. but please i really am in a nearly deadlock. I'm through. im through. i lost almost everything I cherish.
Sep 05