Chloe's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Today I had 2 mental breakdowns. I had a very traumatic childhood and I never felt loved by my parents. They never supported me. They never hugged me when i was crying. They never listened to me when I needed someone to talk. I got bull

Dear Diary, I had a mental breakdown just a few minutes ago..two days passed without a mental breakdown or a panic attack. But today was miserable. At first I felt motivated and I was so optimistic but this changed really quick.

Dear Diary, There is so much stuff to do but I always feel so powerless and tired. I am learning to push myself and keep going. This is a very stressful and emotional because it offers a mental strength and practice and patience. Today I was able t

Dear Diary, I want a job. I want to have a social life again but this is impossible for me right now and for the next 3 month + because recovery takes time and patience. And I will take the time I need to recover. I will not push myself to recover

Dear Diary, I‘m thinking about getting in though with old friends. During my toxic relationship with my abusive ex boyfriend I was not allowed to talk/chat with friends nor with family members. But now I’m free and I want to get back my social life

Dear Diary, Had a mental breakdown again today. I can’t deal with this emotional rollercoaster anymore. It is hopeless to try to ignore my thoughts and trying to fight against my panic attacks. I tried it several times but ended up having an even w

Dear Diary, I don’t need a reason to cry or to be depressed. Sometimes it’s just a psychosomatic thing. I don’t need flashbacks to attract me. I don’t need a trigger. Sometimes i feel sad and depressed out of the blue. And as soon as i realised tha

I survived another day *yay* and I survived at without having a mental breakdown. But this is nothing to be proud of. Because this can change in 0.6833728 seconds. This is why i love sleeping - i can’t have a panic attack or a mental breakdown while

Dear Diary,  My family don’t support me. They don’t understand my feelings and my goals. But i will prove them wrong!!! They will regret that they not believed in me. I will prove them wrong. I am so angry and sad right now.

Had a mental breakdown just a few minutes ago and I haven’t recovered from it yet. I still can’t calm down or stop shaking and crying. I feel so alone and like a failure. I want to get back on track and meet my friends. I want to get in touch with th

Dear Diary, Happy New Year 2023. Hopefully this year will be great.

Dear Diary, i think social media is getting bored. I don't know which one is the best to relax. Facebook is the place for people hating each other. Instagram is for the richest show their things. Video in tiktok was not good enough.  Sometime I r

Dear Diary, as the time goes by, I don't have any best friend beside me. It's hard when I can't share my favourite movies or drama series, my favourite book, how I feel after I done read my book. I just want someone that could understand me, and shar

Dear Diary,today is the hardest day. My hubby is on duty. That mean he leave me and my daughter about 6month when he start his job. I can't my daughter's crying calling her dad. And I also miss him so much.  I hope that everything is ok for tomorrow

Dear Diary, I hope tomorrow I will waie up early. Sweet dream to my head. Stop thinking please. You can fight this

Dear Diary, I really hate with my people. Someone sing a song with try hard and like always screaming. Maybe others say ok, sound good, but for others not. It's a common when a singer got positive and negative comment. But the fan from this singe

Dear Diary, I late to sleep again. At the first place I assume that I read FB, looking IG, watched tik tok. But deep in my heart I still feel that's doesn't enough for me to have my beauty sleep.  Sometimes I want new social media that no one kno

Dear Diary,my tummy was sick right now. Maybe too much of medicine for fight my period pain and fever also. When time like this I really hope that my hubby was sitting here beside me. But I know, he niw working and will come home another 2 month.

Dear Diary, what I really want right now? Why my heart and mind doesn't stop think about yesterday. Yes, my birthday was yesterday. Got so many wish and a gift too.  But where the wish or gift from my close friend that I loved the most. Where my

Dear Diary, I think I must stop looking my cousin's fb. It come to my wall, then I just have a look. And after that I got depressed after read her negative posted.  Already unfriend and block her from my friendlist. So I do not need to look at he

Dear Diary, I miss my hubby so bad. I really want to kiss him. I want hug from him. But I know that he's working right now. Maybe 2 or 3 month he will come home. I really love him. I really miss him so much. I really want like others, husband and

Dear Diary, I don't know what to say about this. Today I just know that my brothers got COVID-19. And everyone in that house in quarantine maybe about 7-14 days. I'm not happy for this. Even they done something that I hate, never visit me when my

Dear Diary,today i message 2 toxic people. The first one is she didn't tell me about house cleaning booking date. And the second 1 she say that girl and boy at school should get the best clothes. But for me, girl should give more attention about thei

Dear Diary, stop overthinking. Go to sleep. U need some rest. That's a lot job to do tomorrow morning 😶

Dear Diary, why I write status on my WhatsApp? Because everytime I read their status, I feel like on that day nothing good happen for me. So I will find something to share that I also have a good day. Have something to say. I really hope that Wha