Eli's Dear Diary

Can someone give me a reason to smile?

I’m still searching for you, my love….I hope to find you soon… My birthday is in two days, and I wish that I could spend that evening with you; I love you! Your Lover, Eli

I’m in desperate need of a conversation, from a beautiful young lady, to distract me, away from reality.

I noticed that, people are starting to strive away, from who they are as a person, and beginning to label themselves by what they do as a living.  Example: I run across hundreds of pages on Instagram, describing themselves as, Models, FashionGuru

I often times, feel alone, with a lot of weight on my shoulders.

Dear Diary,  Hello everyone, I’m Eli… I’m just here to confess, that for the last two years, I’ve been searching for the LOVE OF MY LIFE. I picture her as being, a naturally-beautiful, delicate, open-minded, and understanding, young lady.

Dear Diary, this is first post. And probably the one of the most important lessons learnt. Materialism, is pointless, painful, stressful. Unless there is a need or it is a replacement. But then... the need needs to be thought carefully. Don't let it'

Dear Diary, Had another friend pass away this week. I believe it was because he was a big man .6 ft 6 and heavy . He had a machine for sleep apnea :(  He was the gentle giant and always the onw everyone called when needing a friend.  This one hurt

Dear Diary my friend passed yesterday and he was in his 80s and let a good life.  Cancers awful.  Took so many people I knew . I've been sick since Easter.  I was around so many school age nieces and nephew and hugging everyone ❤️  but harry and I

Dear Diary, Today I read an old friend is in his past days from his Facebook page.  He was boss for a while and then a dear friend  he got cancer.  He wasn't close to his family because he used to be an alcoholic and it took a while to repair th

Dear Diary, When you are heavy it's harder to exercise but when this dark gloomy April showers night chill finally turns into may flowers I will take an allergy pill and walk the track daily.  There's vitamins you get from the sun that supposedly

Dear Diary, - Dear Diary, living as a fat ass after thirty years of living thin because of eating disorders is less miserable but depression inducing :)  - I don't think I've ever been healthy ! I say never because my youth was awful and could be

Dear Diary, In a relationship with a guy I've known since we were 15. We dated "if you'd call it that " I was never the relationship type .  When I was 17 and he just turned 18 and again for a short time years later and again for these last two y