April 26, 2026

Dear Diary,

There's one personality trait that I hate in others, and that is impatience. I wanna say it is because my mother is the most impatient person I know. Never had any patience for me or my feelings, and always so quick to cut me off and make everything about herself. To be honest, it is hurtful that the person who is supposed to be there for you and care for you can act so selfishly and be so involved with herself. Even when she asks me to get her something (she's more than capable of getting it herself), it is like she doesn't even give me a chance to get up off the chair before she raises her voice and demands that I get her whatever it is she needs.

It pisses me off to no end! Sitting here right now and writing about it gets me so heated. I moved out of my mom's home at the beginning of June 2025, so you'd think that all this time away, not seeing her, would make me forget these feelings, but now I notice that when others that I'm around who possess that same trait trigger me, and I'm trying to figure out how not to let other people's impatience affect me.

When people act impatiently around me, I feel rushed or the need to act urgently when in reality I don't have to.... I don't have to subscribe to other people's timelines (of course, unless we're talking about work or school deadlines!), that is just extra toxicity in my life, raising my cortisol levels! UGH!