April 19, 2026

Hi, dear! I hope this finds you well. I also want to tell you that you matter. Be gentle to yourself. Have a wonderful day ahead. https://www.suicidestop.com/call_a_hotline.html

I truly relate to this note, i'm a suicidal kid because of depression and anxiety. We all know depression can kill right?

I don't know what U have been through and I can't tell u that It will get better, because It won't. At some point u just learn how to deal with it. At least that is how I manage to get a bit better. I hear ur pain, ur struggle, ur thoughts. I've been there too. Feeling disgusted with myself too, I hardly ever thought differently of myself. Never thinking that I would be alive on my 21th Birthday. But here I am now, with the same pain, same struggle. But on my way to my 21th Birthday I met so many people, met the love of my life. I made some stupid and bad decisions as well, regretted many things but I wouldn't trade anything for the time and memories I got during that time. I still fall into deep deep black holes, thinking this time it's over, that I wouldn't heal this time. But I did. Somehow over and over. And I'm still living, so are you. So please, don't let the fear and pain overtake you. Your thoughts may never go away, these voices in your head, but you can learn to accept them, learn from them and not let them pull you down. In the end, you own them. It is definitely hard and it takes time, but I know u want to live, deep down u want to continue this life, wanting to make memories as well. Not everyone can be a help, some may try to push you down again but if you believe in yourself. Then that all won't matter. You are strong and I can tell you that because you are still here with us. So please stay that way.