April 19, 2026

Dear Diary,

I miss him so fucking much.

I feel bad for missing him so much but I cant help it.

Hes so easy to miss.

I need to curl up in his arms and cry so bad.

I be kissed and loved so fucking bad.

I just wish this break wasnt so long.

I feel so bad for missing him so much but I cant make it stop

I miss him so bad it physically hurts and I dont know what to do.

I need to be kissed and held till the pain goes away

I..i just need something to keep me going, some sort of proof that im still loved.

If it wasnt so long, maybe it wouldn't be so bad it just...it feels like forever. 53 days left. I...i cant do this for that long. I cant go that long feeling like this.

I just wanna be held and told everything is gonna be okay by the person I love...why does that have to be so difficult?..

I need a kiss so bad..i need to hear that sweet voice say 'I love you' even if its just for a day, please...i just need something to make it hurt a little less.