Dear Diary,
Him
The pain I hold, Not just the porn, but the behaviour that comes out of me as a result, and all areas.
I loved you. I always loved you.. I haven't been able to stop doing it
And I have put so many layers and buried it in so many different ways in order to maintain my secrets.
I can feel what I think you feel. That's devastating. It's like being betrayed to the absolute core.
The worst thing, the worst.
The person that has cop it the worst has been you. I can't and I don't want to do it anymore….not to you, and not to anybody.