Confessions of a Wife of a Porn Addict 's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, If I leave he will die He is the father of my children  He has no family No friends I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders  I know him better than anyone No therapist can seem to crack him because o

Dear Diary, Him I hid behind your back on entire relationship. Therefore, I was never properly capable of loving you.  Her What was i to you then? Him You were somebody that gave me love at every time.  Her You don't respec

Dear Diary, I took my wedding bands off over a year ago now because I did not like what it represented anymore And then… He started to tattoo me all over his body There is about 20 hours of tattoos currently all representing me as a person

Dear Diary, When his porn use stopped working and the hours got longer, the effect wasn’t the same anymore and he became desensitised to most porn and sexual things.  His exposure got darker and more extreme taking him to places where he lost a

Dear Diary, Then came the many job changes, a lot was because of his porn downfall.. a nasty cycle and he would start a new job which often required interstate relocation and a fresh start of trying to reset everything. 6 interstate moves in 15

Dear Diary, I am a very ambitious woman and work a very demanding career which I have become incredibly successful at. However i worked most weekends and often long hours  I tried to help still pushing towards healthy hobbies to get him out of

Dear Diary, Him I was engaging in porn every day. I was lying every day, my thinking became very distorted.  I become a bad parent, a bad worker, a bad husband, a bad neighbour, a bad son, a bad everything.

Dear Diary, Him I have regret for not showing you Love I wish I did things differently. Because all I want to do in my life now always show you love. And repair what I have broken.  I think about how bad I have been to you, and It's the mo

Dear Diary, I never thought to put boundaries around sex toys as I never thought he would use them as they were designed for females… I would rebuild trust with him and faith and was told all the right things And the same story goes his

Dear Diary, The start of a new year and the start of my story I will start to share Now I personally love watch porn with my partner.. what I don’t love is him doing it alone and in secret… I never wanted a relationship with secrets and need

Dear Diary, I am the unwilling passenger who was taken to rock bottom by my husband with his porn addiction  I cannot speak my trauma or truth to anyone. Where do I go to let out the depth of his addiction and the trauma is has caused me

Dear Diary, Why am I his Lesson? Why does my pain and trauma today cause his change? Why hurt me? Why am I the regret he did the things he done? One of the hardest addictions with a lot of stigma attached to it  The raw and honest trut