Dear Diary,
If I leave he will die
He is the father of my children
He has no family
No friends
I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders
I know him better than anyone
No therapist can seem to crack him because of his charm, and the sessions are often just a catch up and hitting around the edges
He is unable to process the reasons as to why and the reasons behind the behaviours… he won’t do it.. I’m having to challenge it. It’s taking its toll
I am not a therapist and do not have the tools to deal with it. Nor can I share anyone the load due to the nature of his addiction and what he did