Dear Diary,
Him
I hid behind your back on entire relationship. Therefore, I was never properly capable of loving you.
Her
What was i to you then?
Him
You were somebody that gave me love at every time.
Her
You don't respect me. You don't love me.
Nobody is standing next to you. Nobody knows the full truth. I and look what it's doing to me. It’s fucked me up
And it's not the fact that's the stuff that you've done. It's what you're still doing now. The dishonesty.
To get recovery you must surrender through Honesty
Defeat and surrender are two different things. Somebody that surrendered is doing everything and anything to get better and Someone that is defeated just sits there feeling sorry for themselves that they got caught.
Surrender is not what you're doing. You're sitting there feeling sorry for yourself because you got caught.