Dear Diary,
When his porn use stopped working and the hours got longer, the effect wasn’t the same anymore and he became desensitised to most porn and sexual things.
His exposure got darker and more extreme taking him to places where he lost all depth and identity
He started questioning a lot
He kept lying to me so I started to record him to catch him out
Him
I've been attracted to woman. There's no question in that.
Like when I see you naked.., I get aroused.
I don't get that feeling from naked men.
My first introduction to Porn when I was 8 was transexual porn with a man that abused me. Sexually
It’s confusing
Until the last couple of months, I've never, ever, even had a conversation with another human being about it.
When I chose to look at Gay porn, I was bored of all the other porn. It all stopped working.. I avoided ever looking at gay porn.. I'd never had a desire to explore it, ever look at it ever.
I've masturbated to porn and masturbating at the woman, not the man..
I've watched this stuff when everything stopped working..What does that make me? Does it make me gay or bisexual. I couldn’t get off to it
When I see a man in the street I don’t think I want to fuck him.
I look at woman like that