Dear Diary, today I went out with some colleagues and we had a few cocktails in different places, and then at 11 pm, instead of doing what I usually do and lying in bed, we went out for tequila. I’d never had tequila in my life, at my age, and they didn’t even believe me… What a disgusting drink, honestly. I didn’t even finish it.
But I did notice a colleague trying to hit on me, he was basically devouring me with his eyes all evening. Ew… At least I ended up taking a taxi with a girl from my previous job, and another colleague gave him a ride instead.
I never, EVER want to get into a relationship with someone from my work circle again. I’ve had enough after falling for one guy who completely destroyed my mental health and my belief that we could have been an amazing couple.
Trusting someone who didn’t want to change anything was the worst decision of my life — honestly, the lowest point I’ve ever been through.
And I still love him…
I’m really drunk… like, very. And I keep thinking about how terribly he treated me, and how much I still love him…