December 20, 2025

Dear Diary,

Bad idea, bad idea, bad idea.... 😣

It was a very bad idea visiting profiles of my classmates from high school and college because here I am again feeling like utter shit 😣 I keep comparing myself, I can't help it. This one girl who was very shy and modest but very smart is now confident and bold so not only is she brilliant and successful she's also stunning..... I hate my mind. Why do I care? How to stop caring? About the world? Others? Everything?

One classmate is now living in a different country. A lot of them have travelled to different places. Beautiful portraits with great sceneries in the background.  Me, I've never even been on a plane... I don't even have a passport... Why do I care? God, why? When am I gonna stop comparing myself to others?