November 22, 2025

Dear Diary,

Wish me luck! 😂

This is my first time trying this again since I dropped my pen on March 23, 2003. I was barely 12 at the time.

I know I just need to pour out my thoughts and be heard by others. Not that they care all that much, or that I expect them to, but I just want to express myself regardless.

I relapsed again after managing to go a week and a few days without giving in. This time, I couldn't control myself, and now I’m filled with regret and feeling overwhelmed, just as I always do. I keep promising myself that I will never do it again.

But what can I do? My life is a mess, and this struggle has become my coping mechanism, even though it feels like a chokehold.

I feel I am alone and no one to talk to about my problems. I am dying slowly by the day.