Dear Diary,
its 5:36am when I am writing this today was a better day it was the first day in the last 3 months that I cried less, I didn't feel any better, but it was less painful still there is a feeling that won't go away I didn't really do much I started studying very late when I knew I had a test to take tomorrow I couldn't help make myself study I streamed music for almost 10 hours so that I don't overthink but the irony is I played only that songs which resembles my situation I was thinking about dreams today its one of the most intriguing phenomenon known to me why do I see faces I have never seen why do I visit places I have never been in why do I have something I can't possess in real life
it was a tedious day I feel worn out
how should I measure friendship is that person really good for me when I feel totally disconnected, I feel bad for cutting them off, but I don't want to be in that friendship anymore it drains me out I don't feel valued
I want to learn sign language I want to be more kind I feel sad for people who has potential, but they are helpless I want to give world to people who are naturally kind who lift people up, positive
I should probably study .................