Dear Diary, I went to the body therapy session today. It was my 3rd time.
I can’t describe it well but the therapist does mixture of psychic healing - which I am not sure if it’s that thing - and traditional eastern style chiropractic??? And also CBT counseling I guess.
He does it for balancing sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems. He had been struggling with panic attacks and he learned how to cope with it and then he does the treatment to others. That’s what he says.
He told me that my body is filled with enough energy, but the energy circulation in and outside of my body isn’t happening. According to him I need to let go my thoughts by talking to people and such, so that fresh energy will flow into my body. I was told the flow stuff at a Chinese herbal medicine shop as well the other day. So that must be an actual thing happening in my body even if I don’t understand the concept of “energy”.
And also, the therapist told me I have enough energy to deal with daily things but it’s like my body can’t read “how much energy I have” correctly so my body only can work with that underestimated amount of energy.
Like even if the machine has 100% batteries, it feels like 50 or 30 % and the machine can only do work for 50 or 30 % batteries.
Anyways the therapist is a very good person. He has so many self care massage videos and he said if I text him when I have headache or dizziness or even panic attack (luckily I don’t have panic attack) he will send me those videos without money.
For this time’s session he doesn’t have next patient after me, he spare some extra time to listen to me and gave me CBT practice idea. Which is visualizing my energy level as number.
He told me to have that number based on how I’m feeling when I wake up, and then think how far or what tasks how many tasks I can do on that day.
But to me it feels like trying to catch fog. So I try opposite direction for now. thinking about what I am feeling like to do first, and then thinking the energy level score.
For example today I started to feel energized around 5:30 PM then felt like walking. And recently I was avoiding to call with my boyfriend (long distance relationship so I was scared of being sad by hearing his voice) but I got the feeling to call him. I ended up with talking and walking approximately 1.5h.
So I decided today’s energy level point was 70/100 (in the morning I was in the bed whole time)
I’ve been thinking of trying Taichi because he recommended me on the first session 4 weeks ago (is it already?!)