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im in a very critical time period, i hv just a week left for my exam. i cant skip this attempt or retake it. i questioned myself what if i couldnt select to med college this time? what would be happen if i couldnt become a doctor and what will i be doing in future?
at the same time i feel like i should quit this time and attend to my classes properly and i should re wire my brain step by step. but how will be that pressure? and how can i face to my parents, relatives and my batchmates, cuz im already 1 yr left behind. cant literally pay attention on skipping, or re take exam.
im in a situation of DO or DIE
and from my younger self, i know, my heart knows about what im craving for. still i have the same dream, and if i talk to my younger self and if i ask about what should i do? she might say and cheer me up.
and i hear my inner voice, inner heart is cheering me to do this, and they are saying that i would definitely do this,
and most importantly i love my dad.
im waiting to put a picture in his profile pic, - dad ,and me- in scrubs with a light blue colour steth around my neck, holding his right hand, infront of the medical college entrance which named my dream university.
also wanna put my result sheet with A s and my rank, in whatsp status by captioning, "academic comeback is real af đź’€"
im waiting for these days. how my dad will proud when somebody asks 'what is your daughter doing and, he is answering - she is studying in a medical college, to become a doctor, or else how will he describe it?
i neeed to make this, not in next time, but this time. i wanna make my dad proud. wanna make my childhood self satisfied and wanna show her that i could do it.
1 week is enough for F to A.
i love my dad,and myslef.