Dear Diary,
How do I let go of feelings for someone important to me?
For someone who stood by me in my darkest hours and was my light.
The feelings I have for him are special, something different. I wouldn't call it love, but longing, passion.
We've always had a special bond, always looked out for each other even when we were apart, when we were worlds apart.
I'm not jealous, maybe I am, but I'm more insecure, sad, feel abandoned, alone. Again.
I'm truly happy for him, but I can't let go. I see myself in her, want to be in her place.
I want him to look at me that way, want him to touch me that way. Before he knew her, he was obsessed with me, wanted my attention, wanted my love. Now I'm nobody to him anymore.
What happened to his feelings for me?
How could he just let go of them like that?
And why can't I?
Why is it so easy for him?
Why have his feelings for me simply vanished?
Was everything he said not meant seriously?
Was I just a distraction, a way to pass the time?
Why is it so easy for him to forget everything, but not for me?
Why am I obsessed with him?
-Hira