October 07, 2025

The universe. The cosmos has sent me a message and I shall take it. They want me to come home and stay alone without my lovely felines. I dreamt of them but they are telling me I donot deserve them. The very first cat I owned after I found my career, my dear moon died just a six months after. I cried my heart out and told myself it's gonna be okay. I by chance got pookie despite being reluctant. But she used to cry so much when I left for work and made it hard for me to sleep. So I got her a friend, my beloved ash. He was so adorable and pookie calmed down as well. Only to have him die today. He stayed with me for 5 months. Pookie is left alone and I am pretty sure she will start crying soon. I cannot bear to watch her face the same fate, I will send her to my brother with his cats. The stars are telling me that I do not deserve the comfort of those beautiful creatures and I shall heed it.