well, i was stabbed in the back again by my father. I cant belive i seriously thought he had stopped. ITS FUCKING USELESS! NO MATTER WHAT OI SAY DO OR THINK NOTHING EVERY FUCKING CHANGES! HE DIDNT EVEN SAY SORRY THIS TIME! WHY? WHY THE FUCK DOES HE NEED TO DRINK THAT SHIT? 3 DRINK! 3 CANS! WHY THE FUCK? I AM MAD BUT I AM FORCED TO FORGIVE HIM! WHY DO I NEED TO DEAL WITH THIS AT 12? WHY!!!!!!!! I HATE MY STUPID FUCKING ASS SHIT OF A LIFE! I HATE IT SO SO MUCH! JUST WHY!