Dear Diary, Mi here again after months later, u would think 8th grade would be my best year because it's my last year in middle school and i'm the top of the school. LOL, nope it is worst than 7th grade, I really hate my life now, wish I was dead everyday I wake up. Always gotta get good grades, gotta be on time, gotta have a dream to achieve. I'm tired of always having to do things. I hate school with a passion and I hate this family. I just wish I can give up, run away, Leave this world for a couple of years of months till school be over or till it's my birthday. My life ended soon as I came a teen even though life was bad when I was 6-14. I was young, thinking when is my dad go come back or where is he?. He is going to come back tomorrow?. Always questioning when he was gonna come. Just for him to never come back. He call sometimes, I hate when he calls, honestly. I know I should be lucky he calls me or even "care" about me. I hate him now, I want him to stop calling because he did this to himself. He in jail, I know why. When I found out I was broken and sick inside. Anyways enough about him, i'm still at the same school I hated since 7th grade "E Prep Willard Campus". I hare everybody at that school, they think i'm dumb and don't notice stuff. Every time I Go to that school I wanna cry, die and roast everybody at that school. I can;t tho bc it's not worth it, since I got one more Year at that school. Everybody at that school is followers or just weird. I have "friends" even though ion really talk to them bc i don't like them. I just talk to them bc they talk to me, i wish they didn't talk to me. I have this one friend who i always talk to me bc i feel like i have no choice bc they the only "friend" I have that's in my class. I wish she just didn't talk to me as well bc it be so weird talking to her. I'm not gonna say her name bc I don't wanna remember them or her. I wish I was in high school already, however i'm not gonna get my hopes up. 7th grade was bad, 8th grade is going terrible. Therefore, I don't think hs will go good. Everyday I go to school I just wanna be alone and unbothered. but I can't be because I always get A "hey" or talked about. I don't care if they talk about me tho, because school almost over and it's my last year there. I feel sad, Mad and hatred every time i go to school or even when i wake up or just have a "regular" day. I Just wanna die, die, and die over again. I don't say i'm suicidal, i just full of hate bc of this world. Deep deep down inside ik i can be happy. even around people I hate deeply. I know I should forgive them but it's not that easy. New year, same old me.