I am so confused on why my life has been... bad? my parents would always fight... i started losing hope. But well. they got better... which should make me happy... but it doesnt. it makes me hate it even more. i know it makes no sense but... when i see them happy it reminds me of how it used to be. I hate it. it makes me sick. I dont know how they can act all so happy like nothing ever happened! and my mom doesnt understand! she thinks i need to forget about my grandpa.But i cant. I can just forget about him. he was super important to me. the best thing in my life, the one who would make my dad stop drinking. the one who gave the best hugs. the one who was always there