Thank god now these people aren't really bothering me anymore. But sometimes I still bumped into Stella and now she just piss me off so much. I hate her. And that fucking burke. But that's not the point here.
So basically last month April 19, I had prom and it was my first ever time that I have actually went to prom. And it was embarrassing..
The moment I stepped in that hotel venue, I head to the bathroom immediately. Yes of course I had make-up on and a "dress" which was basically a combination of my long black skirt and one of my mom's black blouse with a black belt around my waist. And I had a bob so I look like a asian aunt instead of a princess or whatever. And the dresses the other girls have on are like expensive princess dress with fluffy skirt on it BASICALLY THEY LOOK GORGEOUS AND IM DRESSED LIKE THIS! And the whole time I was there I had to keep a look out at people that I know so they don't recognize me cause If they do it will be so embarrassing because they have never seen me in a dress before and I usually dress up like a thug. Not really. I wear like a hoodie and baggy jeans with a beanie under my hoodie with some fingerless gloves everyday at school. It's embarrassing I know. I just don't have the right clothes I actually want because of my strict ass parents. At least I don't dress in Lululemon like those girls at school! Like its's fucking high school not a prostitution! They just pick me and wanted fucking attention from those no brainer guys in school who laughs at TikTok brain-rot.
That's not the point anyways! But basically through out the entire prom I was shaking and nervous and I had to make sure no one recognize me. Yes I had make up but It's not thick unrecognizable make-up! So I had to keep my guards up especially when A LOT of kids in my grade that I recognize passes by or is nearby me. And the whole time I was there I sat on the table with basically a group of senior friends. And my brother was also with me. Even they we're having fun and I was there alone anxious. They also did invite me and make sure I didn't get left out. They we're so kind but I was the problem here.
And what makes this all eve worse was that this was PROM. And just a this moment I've realized just how much people in school are dating. And I'm not. Well my friends aren't too. still!
But thank god that I'm not dating anyone in this school. First of all most of the guys SUCKS. They're all so cocky and arrogant. And They have bad music taste and bad humor because they laugh at stupid TikTok brain-rot. And they cannot take anything seriously! Second, They look WEIRD! And not my type! All of them have those typical fluffy hair or ice cream hair which fucking pisses me off so much! If not a fluffy hair a fucking mullet! EWWW!!! And they dress so basically with the same typical white or black T-Shirt and shorts or those Lululemon pants with those stupid Jordans! And they always talk with that annoying fake-ass deep voice! They're rude and cocky and they like fake ass BOP girls which dress like a slut.
Sometimes I'm glad they don't like me cause I don't like those type of guys either, but sometimes it just frustrate me that I'm turning 18 and I'm still single! This is all thanks to my strict ass parents! And Yes! They would be so furious if I ever date anyone because once my mom found out my brother was dating this girl, she told him to break up immediately! And even then she would provoke him and bring it up often. If they ever find out I'm dating anyone they would probably told him to break up with me or lecture me or something or provoke me! UGH TS PMO SM! This is why I'm waiting until I turn 19 or 20 so that after I leave home I can finally get clothes that I actually want and dress up however I like without my parents telling me. And I can finally have a boyfriend so that I don't have to be lonely anymore!