May 14, 2025

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Dear Diary, I feel really bad about it I mean is it my fucking fault that you married my father and he is dark and I look like him so IM DARK AS WELL???? the fuck? I've had enough in school time of boys calling me black mamba south African etc. etc.. I can't fucking believe my mother she just made a freaking face to me and scolded me why I didn't apply the face pack I look a what demon ghost whatever seriously bro you're last person who should feel like that this face is literally mixture of your face and the face you fell in love with! 


tbh i do feel sometimes that I'm beautiful its just I don't match the standards. She doesn't like black people as well I mean not hate but she told me to marry a any guy (white guy especially) (with this face) but he shouldn't be black lol so that makes sense why she wants to make me white so desperately.


I just wish if its possible for a guy to love me like this to prove her wrong but that's like one in a million possibility also it has effected my confidence level its under the sea fr so I do think I'll get whitening treatment in future like other dark girls 


but I do really wish to have a guy love me like I'm right now


peace out

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OnlookerMay 31, 2025

You do not know? lmao people like black girls but it depends on the area, certain countries are dedicated to hate blacks like America but then there are few like smaller places that do not it varies from area to area like city to city

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TitusAloneMay 15, 2025

Ok speaking as a german guy who is probably vastly out of touch with your problems: There are plenty of guys who like dark/black/brown girls, me included. Cultural beauty standards change the overall perception people in certain places have about this, but I think that the general attraction of people doesnt change much. There are tons and tons of people who will love you the way you are I promise.

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ink_heartMay 14, 2025

Hey, I just wanted to say something after reading what you wrote( I hope that’s okay) you’re incredibly brave for being so honest. That kind of vulnerability takes strength. I hope one day you can stop feeling like your skin color is something to fix. Do not let the world convince you that your skin is something to fix. Your shade is not a flaw. It is a legacy, a flame, a work of art adorned in melanin. Women like Amandla Stenberg, Queen Latifah, and Naomi Campbell carry that same fire, and the world celebrates it when it finally opens its eyes. They don’t fit some outdated definition of “standard beauty” but shine all the brighter because of it. They’re proof that beauty isn’t about being white or light. It is about presence, confidence, and authenticity. One day, you’ll see that you’ve always belonged not outside beauty, but at its heart.. And that dream you mentioned? About someone loving you exactly as you are? Don’t even think for a second that it’s rare. Real love doesn’t search for a version of you that doesn’t exist. It finds your truth ,the way you are right now. And that love? It’s out there waiting for you. The one who will see your strength, your beauty, and your soul and stand beside it. You’re already enough. You’re already art. Never forget that.

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