Dear Diary, I feel really bad about it I mean is it my fucking fault that you married my father and he is dark and I look like him so IM DARK AS WELL???? the fuck? I've had enough in school time of boys calling me black mamba south African etc. etc.. I can't fucking believe my mother she just made a freaking face to me and scolded me why I didn't apply the face pack I look a what demon ghost whatever seriously bro you're last person who should feel like that this face is literally mixture of your face and the face you fell in love with!
tbh i do feel sometimes that I'm beautiful its just I don't match the standards. She doesn't like black people as well I mean not hate but she told me to marry a any guy (white guy especially) (with this face) but he shouldn't be black lol so that makes sense why she wants to make me white so desperately.
I just wish if its possible for a guy to love me like this to prove her wrong but that's like one in a million possibility also it has effected my confidence level its under the sea fr so I do think I'll get whitening treatment in future like other dark girls
but I do really wish to have a guy love me like I'm right now
peace out