today is may 13, 2025 and im just now starting to collects bits of my drunk weekend. friday may 9th i kissed you for the first time in months. it felt like magic and felt so right. ive never kissed somebody whose lips perfectly align with mine. i just miss us and miss all we were when we were something concrete. now were everything and nothing all at the same time. back then i never realized itd come to this. i wish it stayed the way it was so i could call you mine again. i miss you M i really do its hard everyday to talk to you and try to only be friends and to not kiss you. god i hate you but my love for you will always stay.