Dear Diary,
Someone's precious laughing reaction (this one 👉👉👉 😂) on my last note combined with the today's melancholic ending forced me to write this note on you.
I used to be given the nickname Einstein in my school and was a class topper. But now I don't understand much. I don't understand why things at my own home are the way they are.
Would like to know your opinion if you see a home where :-
Nobody cares about what the younger son is going through. The elder one doesn't show normal human behaviour, like a person who doesn't have the manners to talk (if that's the decade chosen by him to talk to us) and behave properly with the doors. When he wishes, he can silently send WhatsApp messages about random crap to those in the same house (same floor). Younger one is the employed one, even though he shouldn't be if you consider his current state. In fact, the one who is already suffering is the one who got even more pissed off today after giving an online test. For mental peace, he has started to think of his elder sibling as a person with genuine mind problems.
Interpals and Reddit are two things I've given up lately. Once I did have a thought to use the latter as a journal. Not really a journal but something where I could express my thoughts, feelings, etc. It has the potential to make you talk about things that you won't want to bring up normally. Turning down the UK job offer is just one of them for me. My acquaintance from my earlier job didn't turn it down. But he is already back home now. On a recent call with him, he seemed different than he used to be years ago. Maybe I disturbed him at the wrong time. Still I'd agree to some extent to the complaining he expressed about my parents failing to get me married. My personal opinion is that they have given up, there is total silence at home. They need to give priority after all to looking after themselves as well.
Love is the greatest scam to exist in the history of humankind. Most people are too lost in their dreamy world to recognise this. I just wish there was someone I could call at this time of the night.
God bless All.