You know, for a very long time I was in love with my best friend. We had a whole year relashionship and then we got back to being best friend. It was so hard that I decided to change school and she never tried to contact me. None of my friends tbh.
So I just kept on living my life trying to forget her and all but I couldn't.
I was scared to go on the center of the city 'cause I knew I could see her so I rarely went there. And sometimes what was scaring me happened and she was acting as if I was a bad person, all her friends laughed at me and all.
I escaped again, well not for her this time, it's for my studies but in the end it still helps me to go as far away as I can from her. Yet she came back. She requested to follow me on Instagram and I was lost.
Is she desesperate 'cause as I promised I did not came back to talk to her in more than a year ? Idk. I loved her for more than eight years, and in my heart she will always be my best friend, yet I can't talk to her. I can't do that anymore it won't be the same anymore I know it.
But some days ago I had a dream. A very very very beautiful dream. We were a tryo, 3 bffs.
And in this dream we were back, all 3 together. We were laughing as if we had always been together. We were older yet we were as innocent as the day I left them. I was so happy that when I woke up I finally felt relieved.
I wondered what would've happened if that day, I hadn't left? What if I had just told them : "I love you, see y'all next year" ?