Dear Diary,
I am so irritated right now...
I am so done with everything...
I am just done with answering my mom what went wrong...they keep saying ki date postpone ho gaya... uske baad behaviour wala baat aaya...wo bhi jab date pe date k liye rakhe ja rahe the baat...
Gussana mat ek kaam krna...usse puchhna ki kya kharab laga unlogo ko behaviour me taki next kahin aur pe wo sab mistake na kare...
I am so furious right now, coz kharab behaviour wala utna hi baat hai...
I said ki thik hai yaar... tumlog ka kharab Raha toh wo log kaun se kam rahe hain kabhi bhi...they are also like that only... kabhi acha behaviour rakhe hi nahi hain... mummy is like ki itna aage kyu gaye fir...I said ki apne bete k liye gaye honge...but at a point bete ko bhi samjh aa gaya ki nahi....drama end hi nahi hoga...
Right now I just hate everything around me....
Mummy is asking jab sab khatam ho gaya hai tumhare hisab se then toh mann se isko nikal k...dusre ladkon se baat karo...
I was ki yaar...turant nahi hota hai...toh she said ki isko ko toh turant pasand kr li thi...I said ki acha laga tha...abhi koi aur nahi lag raha...
And stress wagera sirf tumlog ko nahi hota hai...mera bhi mental health hai...stress hai...aur ghar ka mahol bhi waise hi hai...ye ladka wo ladka...thodha time dena chahiye na kam se kam 15 din break le lo yaar ye sab se...
Aur time lagta hai... sirf tumlog ko stress nahi hota
Ye sab me papa aa gaye so I stopped the conversation...coz aur drama nahi chahiye tha... mummy papa se puchhi thi wo WhatsApp wale status ko message me bhejna wala baat...he said unhone nahi bheja...
Kisi din dimag kharab hoga toh I will say ki yaar shuru se unlogo mere se problem hai... kuch sahi nahi lag raha tha... uski family ko laga ki daldal me fas jayega...i am a chugalkhor ladies and what not...2 bachhon ki maa wala baat I can't say coz tab comparison mode pe aa jayenge..
Which I would not like...and to be honest...daldal me fas jayenge...bhai hum bahut happening se log hain... they should atleast look at themselves once and introspect about their own behaviour...I am angry with my family but I will never deny his family is way more toxic than mine...his sister has only one thing to do with me...she always added fuel in the fire or I should say she was the one who ignited the fire...
I am angry with him also for putting this situation...itta drama tha toh he should have a taken a stand for himself... protected me ya fir unsure nahi hona tha...ya fir pehle hi sab end kr dena tha... coz chizen postpone hui thi inlogo ne toh sab kuch hi badal diya...I make my parents realise their mistakes but they are at 30% fault only.
I am done with my life... yesterday I was having so negative thoughts regarding my life...
Dear diary, I want to write more about how I am feeling what were thoughts in my mind before this thing happened...