Dear Diary, venting
Semester just ended and it's getting kinda busy because we're entering our internship era. I'm in two minds about taking that contract job which is going to take 2 years of my life (A job that I haaaateeeeeeeeeeee lol everyone has been forcing me to take it) The only reason why I took this diploma was because I needed a backup plan in case shit don't go the way I plan it..careerwise. I know there's many more people that LOVES teaching but unfortunately the passion, the interest is not even in me. I don't even like kids. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I EVEN GOT IT LIKE the fuck they didn't even ask me that many questions during interviews? I EVEN FORGOT THE QUESTIONS. Also from the researches I've done in the last semester, the workloads has been increasing (Teachers are being burdened with more extracurriculur programmes than actual teaching itself. The curriculums are so bad lmfao what do you mean there's no tests??? No exams??! And you wonder why so many of them are fucking illiterate). I would do so much better in a boring routined job instead of having to plan something new to teach everyday. Older people are resigning few years early and apparently there's no more retirement plans for us newer gens. SUCK SOS.
I'M NOT IN A GREAT MOOOOOOD as you can tell. My wisdom teeth are killing me. I need to take 2 of them out for now cause one it's been hurting my ulcer and two I think it's hit some kind of nerve in my gums, because the pain is radiating from my jaw to ear. I REALLY WANNNA KILL MYSELF BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP BECAUSE OF THIS FOR THE PAST 4 DAYS