Dear Diary,
Today was fine. I hung out with my friend today and that was nice. I tried really hard to sleep last night but it took a really long time to fall asleep. I tried to do some meditation and it helped relax me but it still took a while. I woke up late and when I got up I saw a lot of people moving into the building for the spring semester. I watched YouTube for a while and then went and had lunch with my friend and we walked around and talked for a couple hours. I came back to my dorm and watched some more and I texted my friends. I was talking to my best friend and told her how I feel like I am too much of an open book. I said how it wasn’t helpful and she said “well it’s not” and not going to lie I wasn’t expecting her to say that and it really hurt my feelings. I really don’t mean to be so open. I see it as such a curse. I have tried so so so so hard to just shut up. I have made it a goal for as long as I can remember. Every single time I go to a new school or it’s a new year or when we move somewhere new I always make it a goal to just shut up. But I can’t. I am such an open book. I feel so bad and embarrassed. I don’t know why I have such a loud mouth. I really don’t. I feel so guilty about it. I promise I try so hard. I promise I try to close my mouth. I promise I try to just shut up. It hurt my feelings so much.