Dear Diary,
1:48 am
Hi, this note is about 1st Jan. 2025.
I don't know how to describe the day, chalo achi chizon se starting krte hain...bhai called for wishing mummy papa and me... happy New year.
I got a good opportunity to revamp my work...truly this one is the big opportunity and I will do anything and everything to grab it as it's gonna change a lot of things if I got the opportunity and excel in it...it will open many doors...I hope so everything goes well with this, no laziness and procrastination in this...I promise to myself...I have to make it happen, at this point I need this project.
But the sad part is I got to know that Saurabh from Proximity passed away 15-17 days back, he was only 38...
I was working today and that was the good part.
Now, here comes the bad part, the engagement got cancelled, yes I would not say that it got postponed, it got cancelled coz they again don't have any timeline, and they are so rigid in everything...still I fought with my parents explaining their pov but deep down I feel so guilty putting my parents in this situation, literally I felt today that Samyak, how dumb he is...
My parents were quite sad... I hope they don't stress much... which they are doing already...Idk how are they so cold... only thinking about themselves...like nothing else matter... hamara itta lose ho raha hai...they are not getting that also... financial loses toh ek logical chiz hain samjhne k liye...jab ye nahi samajh aaya toh baki emotionals and all kya hi samjh payenge....easy hota hai keh dena ki hotel wala return kr dega... Who is gonna tell them...agar itta easy hai toh please aa k return karwa dijiye money hotel walon se...5 star resort hai yaar...koi local sa hotel nahi hai...and terms and conditions follow hote hain...and how illogical was that...humko wahan aana padega wala baat...and they had the problem with that also ki my parents talked to Samyak...
And mere life me jitne bhi male friends rahe hain... atleast unke ghar me they have right to take decisions or atleast they have a say...
My parents are also rigid ki nahi ab 2 saal wait krna padega tab bhi isse hi shaadi krayenge...wtf 😒
Isliye mood change krne k liye le kar gayi mai Mummy papa ko bahar...I saw mummy crying in the car... hiding and crying but I sensed it and I also saw her wiping her tears... I feel so miserable right now... putting them in this situation...maybe I made a wrong decision... atleast I took them out jisse thodha mood toh light hua and definitely money buys happiness...
And talking about Samyak...raat ko 1 min ka New Year Wish krne k baad ho gaya 😂, bro literally if I mean something to you na...you would like to spend some time with me... atleast 24 hrs me he didn't even bother to call or text once...I called him, I texted him to call me as I need to talk...tab usne reply Kiya....and literally he didn't care to call me back once the entire day... atleast ek baar insaan din me New Year hi wish kar deta hai...and mujhe toh nahi hi kiya....mere maa baap ko atleast ek message hi daal deta new year wala... atleast my mom was expecting but wo tab hota hai na when you care for someone 😂...and I texted his mother subah hi "Happy New Year to you anuty ji and uncle ji" ....blue tick but no reply...no thanks / same to you/ happy new year.... anyways, this was expected...
Now, I have decided something very mindfully...I won't write about that here now...I will only write about it when the decision will change something in my life or if I stick to it...I hope this is the right decision... difficult but may be right one...
That's all for today, I hope I could sleep...but papa so nahi paye hain abhi tak...baar baar idhar udhar ho rahe so I can figure out that he is not okay...
But I will try to sleep...I have to make Tomorrow productive.
When I came back home that time...I was so tired but I chose not to sleep that time.