Dear Diary,
Hi!
First of all, I am very anxious right now, I wasn't some time back but I am since last half an hour.
I tried making a year recap video but end of getting confused what to put and not to... actually Wahan tak pahunch hi nahi payi...itte saare photos and videos hain which is quite overwhelming for this moment. So, I gave up.
Anyways, my note for 2024.
Dear 2024!
Idk how to summarise you...you were really harsh for me... let's say 30-70...30% I was okay or happy toh 70% times full of stress, failure and what not.
Start toh ki thi khushi k sath...I remember new year lunch, CCD Magneto me coffee, then house hunting, then mummy papa ko starbucks, cosmo expo, first VR experience, sufi night at cosmo expo, Ram mandir sthapna, new phone "One plus 12" it was my second phone which I purchased with my own money, first wala samasung tha 2014 me...6k ka ye hai 80k ka...yup 👍🏻... January I guess aise hi summarise kr sakti hu...work was also good... Social Panda was thriving...
February me first pottery experience, nothing interesting to remember I guess, work and new clients, started working our page yahi sab...I was single so koi Velentines Day special nahi...
March was also flat like February... obsession of eating burger March me hi aaya :D I enrolled for SHE HUB on Women's day and jab revert nahi aaya I thought I got rejected.
Again nothing special in April, May being my birthday month... brought little joy and adventure in my life... actually May is like a birthday Month, firstly we celebrated Social Panda's 1 year competition, Aman's birthday, then my birthday, May starting me I went home for casting vote, I got selected for SHE HUB, I went to Chennai, Taj Coromandel, swimming, beaches and so on... Everything was smooth till May...
June, I started my weight lose journey around 21-22nd June...high hopes k sath...I met Principe...I shifted my office at Aarambh...
Shifting to Aarambh was the worst decision I guess... nothing good happened after that...
All these while traveling ho hi Raha tha mera idhar udhar, Ambikapur to Raipur frequently.
July, papa ka retirement, papa ka birthday, mummy ka birthday, Principe leaving Raipur - I was the reason somewhere around 1-10%, new hiring, etc, jhumka dam, etc.
I guess till July things were okay, life was good, no stress, only stress was getting married... which is still on.
August - Aman leaving Social Panda, clients leaving, Rakshabandhan, Gurugram trip, grand Hyatt, mummy papa k sath local community market, marriage pressure, disagreements fights with papa to the next level, same topic. Friendship Day, closeness with Divya increased again...
September, wanted to celebrate Ganesh chaturthi, murti rakhna last year k tarah but periods. I met Samyak... I was so against marriage...but I thought to give him a genuine try and idk how I clicked to him...maybe the only best thing that happened to me in 2024 is him. He was over pouring his love, care and what not...he came to meet me... firstly I didn't like him that much or I wasn't that sure or idk what but my heart accepted him...I knew I can go for this person...he is such a sweetheart 😘...I went to Gangrel Dam with him, kabse jaana chahahti thi shayad 3-4 saal se iske sath gayi...jetski
If he ever ask me for marriage like properly that would I like to marry him... it is or will be my easiest yes in life coz itta jaldi mai kisi bhi chiz k liye haan nahi bol paati hu... but asli kahani abhi shuru hota hai...the easiest yes became the hardest thing to execute...iske baad se jo life me bhar bhar k stress, delima, anxiety aaya hai na...puchho mat. Anyways...I hope ki 2025 me khushiyan ho...aur hum (SS&SS) bhi sath ho... Khush ho..
October - Deoghar, stress, baki rest story to diary me likha hi hoga...nai bhi likha hoga, toh bhulne wala nahi hai, I went to Blr to meet him...the best time that I had with him... actually jitna bhi time spend Kiya hai wo sab best hi hai... around 90%...
November - Diwali, financial crisis, clients leaving, engagement hoga nai hoga ye problem, his family not liking me...my family not liking his family...vice versa and what not...he came to Raipur...scooty rides with him, itta acha hai na...kya hi bole...I still feel guilty for that day mai nahi thi...and he cleaned the ac filter, mai kisi ko bula k kara sakti thi but usko problem solver bannaa hota hai, Vinita ka baby, happiness program, I loved him more...I left the office.
December - Again, not so happening, everything was kind of smooth only but fir wahi engagement date push krne ka issue, us pe drama, stress, uncertainty, doubts, things not that good between us, my insecurities and what not, uska change ho jaana, mera work pe bilkul focus nahi krna...and all. Let's see what happens next. Mummy papa ka anniversary, mayfair, Ankur se meeting (sirf 5 baar milna hua hai Ankur se...May me, Rakhi, Deoghar, Diwali, December)...my unplanned, last moment, Blr trip... atleast this trip gave little happiness, daaru pike ulti Krna, bed breaking :D and trying something new... positions in ***, uska mera haath pakad k ghumna pure time :), certifications by CM, first time purchasing liquor myself.
Dear 2024, I went for expansion of SP but graph 10 se sidha zero pe aa gaya... anyways I will learn from my mistake, meeting him was the best thing that happened, keeping him is the hardest thing I have done this year, I lost 10 kgs with me being careless is also a good thing.
Anyways, I have learnt to always practice gratitude, seeing Good things and moving ahead with them...so yup... thanks for the lessons and for giving me him...
Things I would like to leave behind -
1. My laziness
2. My emotions controlling me
3. Procrastination
4. Being hypereactive
Things I wish to achieve in 2025
1. My transformation till March
2. Multiple sources of income (atleast 3 sources should be there)
3. Not letting other people control my mood and happiness and try to not let anyone control my life.
4. Physical activity atleast 20 days a month.
5. Getting a social life
6. More focus on work
7. Marrying Samyak happily.
8. Doing 100% to make achieve 7 but in for any unforeseen condition, getting married before 2025 ends.
I wish I could work hard and manifest good things and achieve them.
Also, I am signing out as cookie, leaving cookie also with 2024.
Goodbye 2024!
Welcome 2025! Please be nice to me.