Dear Diary,
Hi! It's 11;45 am in the morning. I woke up quite late today as I slept around 5;30 am but I woke up around 10:30 am. And waking up like this...without proper sleep abruptly gives me a good body ache. Anyways, I wanted to write on 24th Dec, 25th Dec, about Blr and so on...but could not make time for it...but today I will write it anyhow.
12:25 pm - I got busy so couldn't complete the note. Yesterday was Sunday, half of the day I was rude to everyone yaa yesterday also I couldn't get proper sleep as I told my mom that I will make her breakfast her current fav one, so I woke up early for that. I called out my house help too, generally I don't say anything but yesterday I felt to say it and reaction everyone knows, nothing new, later we had lunch prepared by my mom and went to collect rings, later marine drive and so on...overall thik thak din tha.
I am hurt...literally hurt...his tone...just made me cry at that moment, I couldn't say anything, I didn't feel like saying anything at that instance, at that moment, I felt so unwanted in his life and I can take everything but can't take this...feeling unwanted, burden or I don't have a proper word...and that very moment I decided that I will not talk to him for how long Idk, how long it will take me to get over it Idk...I requested him to talk to my mum once but usse wo bhi nahi hua...I guess he don't wanna stay anymore...and yesterday it wasn't the first time I felt like this...December starting se hi aisa feeling hai mujhe...jab se ghar se wapas aaya hai...tab se hi.
And ring kaisa hai...if I like it or not uske liye koi badi baat nahi hogi...but mere liye hai...coz I know we don't share a common taste...and I like things done according to me, I want stuffs of my choices because if I don't like something I don't wear it and who will know this better than my mum, she literally stopped buying anything for me, so I wanted to see the picture, so that I could know if I like it or not...the bracelet he gifted me...if I was supposed to buy, I would have never purchased coz that's not my taste but I liked it and wore it multiple times I mean I wear it...that's why I wanted a picture so that if I like it, then all okay, if I don't, atleast, I will make up my mind for that and instead of asking someone else he could have simply asked me what do I like...simple...but he wants everything as surprise and everyone knows how much girls like surprises :P
(they don't).
And during the day he said he is sleeping, afternoon he said he is sleeping, evening he said he is sleeping, that's why I thought to wake him up as he is only keen about going to gym early morning and I thought that itta sone k baad, nind to ho hi gaya hoga...but
Anyways, I will write today about more things happening and that happened in past few days...dear diary, I am not sad but I am hurt and above that this time the menstrual cycle is also hitting hard...bleeding is quite heavy this time, ,, I have to finish my work today and go out with mummy. I need to plan something with Divya also, she asked me to meet her for her birthday treat but I haven't responded yet.
And tomorrow, it will be my last note on the open diaries as cookie, I am leaving a few things behind with 2024, I will write that also tomorrow, I will signing out as Cookie...
Okay, lot of pending works and plans! Bye now...and I am hungry too...will eat something...weather is good here...ok bye