Dear Diary,
Baatein bhul jaati hain, yaadein yaad aati hain. Yaadein...
Ye yaadein kisi dil-o-jaanam k chale jaane k baad aati hain...
Hi,
(11:50 am)
Dear diary, I am not okay at this moment, I am neither happy nor sad, I am neutral. I don't know how I am feeling. I am getting emotional about things, panicking for small things, I am not able to plan my day, I am not able to focus, I am struggling with everything. It's been a long time that I have been fully relaxed or happy from within. I am not in a good state, neither mentally nor physically. I want to depend on someone, I want a change in my life, I don't know how would I achieve that but that is the requirement right now. Maybe I need to go somewhere, somewhere alone and look into zero. I need to change my location I guess. I am too anxious these days, I am not able to handle anything. I need to fix myself. I want to relax, I want to sleep, I want to be loved, taken care of, I need to breathe,I need to eat, I need to bath. I want the old energetic, full of life kinda me.