Dear Diary, you ever just get that chill of calm coming over your body because you realize your going to be okay? because if you have yourself you don't need anybody else. everything just feels okay in your bubble of calm. im starting to realize that no everything is going to happen the way you planned out so heres my life so far. few months ago my favorite uncle died, my friends shunned me, i graduated, new school, new friends, my dad went back to jail, i went to hoco, i discovered that music helps me focus and calms me down and helps me escape from the world from everything else when i need a break and im actually really smart when i put my mind to it. Life has pushed me through so many doors and im not, or i wasn't ready to go through. Time is going by too fast. just yesterday i was a kid playing in the living room with my siblings. now im a quiet, shy-ish, introverted teen that just stays in her room all day so nobody has nothing to say about her. So i just sit in my room and sleep and do homework so nobody can get on her for existing. EUGH, i miss being myself but if i had to go back in time and do it all over again i wouldn't becausse no matter what i do everything happens for a reason. I think im gonna just catch up on some netflix and relax because if i dont after like 5 hours of work i need it. and i deserve it, im drained emotionally and physically. i feel ike the next time someone ask's me if im okay im going to burst into tears and shut down. Is this what people or teens are supposed to feel like? drained, annoyed, anxious, tired, constant headaches, stressed? because if not whats wrong with me?