There's no such thing as a good ending. Until few days ago , maybe for a long time I lived I survived my life in the hope that one day I'll get a good ending. Like if I already got a bad start and bad middle , bad memories and maybe in future , I thought at the end I'll get a good ending, I'll find a home one day. But now I realised even though I got a bad start or bad life rn, it doesn't mean I'll get a good ending like in movies. I'm just suffering for the sins I might've done in my last life or in this life. Maybe I don't deserve a good ending. I don't have any hope. I'll never find a home. I know. What's the point in living with a hope? It's not hope, it's just being Delusional. I'm afraid to die too. Let's say, my sins that I don't know gets neutralized just by I'm living in miseries. And even if I deserve to go to heaven, I'm afraid that "what if heaven too will feels like hell". I don't wanna die then again go to hell. I don't wanna live to again living in hell. I don't know what to say so I'll just end my convo now.