I don't want to talk too much. Let's call this 'day one'.
I feel something is changing in my life and I can't pinpoint what it is, but I feel it is something good.
Maybe the thing has already changed and this is 'day one.'
I think I'm supposed to be too scared and ashamed to even say 'day one' because of the many other "day one's" I've had in the past.
But this is day one.
Something have to happen to my spiritual life.
I need to connect with God properly - that's where my hope and faith is based. If I don't feel connected to God, I feel like I'm wasting my life; I feel I've failed already before I even start. Connecting with God is not an option for me at all.
So this is day one.
I woke up today and just told Jesus "let's start again."
Yesterday I was in the depths of failure and sin. I'm talking about the day-before-today yesterday, not the in-the-past yesterday.
and today I'm saying 'day one.'
will I ever give up? What's keeping me from giving up exactly?